Insecurities

**Finally managed to publish few weeks worth of drafts..

I'm not a Taylor Swift's fan. I actually not that much into blondes. Not much into her songs either but there's something about her that I begin to like and relate to myself.

Taylor Swift in Vogue February 2012 issue.

When she was 12, she devoted an entire summer to writing a 350 page novel. She began writing songs regularly and used it as an outlet to help her with her pain from not fitting in at school.

She said in her interview with Vogue Magazine.

"So . . . middle school? Awkward," says Swift.
"Having a hobby that's different from everyone else's? Awkward.
Gain a lot of weight before you hit the growth spurt? Awkward.
Frizzy hair, don't embrace the curls yet? Awkward.
Try to straighten it? Awkward!" 

And despite her current fame, all those Grammys, lots of big paychecks "awkward" past is still hard to shake.

"I think who you are in school really sticks with you," Swift admits.

She is not wrong.

I've watched a documentary about how our brain function, that what happened to you during brief years of childhood and adolescence life will most likely to effect your personality as and adult.

Insecurities isn't pretty. I myself tried to shake it for quite sometimes now.
At times, I'm pretty confident about myself, but there'll come times when I think I'm still a big chubby unattractive teenager that nobody likes. I'm afraid my self-conscious will annoyed others and these insecurities really doesn't help me in the future.

But everybody have their own insecurities, no matter how pretty u grew up into, or how successful you are. You can't make it go away but you can left it behind. Far behind. It just the matter of how you try to overcome it.

So to those who still have insecurities (to myself in particular =P), remember even the pretty Taylor Swift has it, everybody else have it. They just don't show it. Just learned to deal with it and focus on how great your life is at the moment. Leave the past behind. You can reminisce but don't bemoan it. Focus on the present. Enjoy the moment. =)

Some of her Vogue spread,

So that's about it. Have a good day everyone. (^_^)