2025 Recap!

 Idk why I still wanna post but idc ill post till blogspot become obsolete heh. So let me sum up this whole 2025 in one post? 

1. That Kaohsiung- Alishan-Taipei trip. Climbing in Long Dong (or was it Dec 24? idc still counts) Also by transit - Macao. 

2. Got interviewed by Siakap Keli abut my 10 years climbing experience. Wait thats Dec 24 as well haha. Its up on YouTube.

3. Got lead certified in Singapore! Thanks to Derrick. Its not easy to be lead certified in SG u know haha.

4. Brought my parents to SG they never been, while im attending the company's 30th anniversary.

5. First time trying Okeanos in Takun, before it closed again.

6. Got Top 3 in BoTB Eco City in Feb. Behind national athletes Renee and Tia who are 10 years+ younger haha proud of myself lol. 

7. Start taking care of my nutrition, started training lower body(my weak link) to prepare for Ozone Games and Crank Lead.

8. Also its my 10th year climbing and I plan to restart my Osmosis. but having trouble with timing (work schedule) and finding a project partner.

9. Gotten sick in June due to LEA (Low Energy Availability) learning more and more about myself and nutrition.

10. Finally sold my long serving Kancil to a Perodua staff who wanted to fix it and give it to his daughter. Glad it could still serve other girl even after almost 30 years of its existence. 

11. Went to US for the first time!! To celebrate Enercon US 50th anniversary. Peoria to be exact and by transit I also visited Japan for the first time (climbing in BPump Akihabara woohoo!!)  and London (haha just in the airport tho). Twas awesome for sure despite the loooooooong flights.

12. Met my Osmosis project partner Sol from Korea and he brought me to my 4th ever multipitch in La Kura Kura, omg so tiring but awesome. He also made me able to project Osmosis consistently for 1 month plus before he went back to home for Chuseok holidays.

13. Burnt my MUSE CAT 1A ticket concert in Jakarta because im too focused on projecting. Lesson learned.

14. Also have to burn my Crank training also due to projecting. In my defense its really not easy to find a specific climb partner who wanted to project the same thing, so I honestly throw everything else away at this period. 

15. Went to Kuching again (for work)

16. Knew an American and Turmenistan couple in Nyamuk, Joshua and Tamara and ended up being their witness for their marriage registration hahaha new experience. Also my name will forever be in someones marriage certificate lol.

17. After Sol went back to Korea i redirect my focus to Ozone Games and freaking won first place in Rookie Category!!!! After 3 years of participating.

18. Turned 39!

19. Treat myself a thorough bloodtest and excited to start 2026 with more clarity about myself inside and outside. 

20. Still projecting Osmosis and will send it soon. hee.

Its ChatGPT Era!

OMG I only have not been posting for a year but it feels like a different era already. By the way, Chat GPT is like the single most important innovation to date for a person like me hahaha. I know some would say dont fully trust AI, but hey, for a person who always questioning things and never got the answer, ChatGPT is a Godsend. It resolve all the question I had about myself my health my brain my personalities my challenges, and it can also help an eldest daughter how to navigate life in every aspect hahaha. If only this exist during my teenage years where I had SOOOOOOOOOO many uncertainties about life. But then again, im happy its not cos idk if it would help my brain if id ChatGPTed all my assignments and lab reports hahaha. that would be bad. 

2024 so far..

 Alhamdulillah all is good, not super great not super bad, just good. 

Though I do feel a little bit frustrated I got my period on the last 10 nights of Ramadhan (managed to at least pray full taraweeh on night of 21st but then have to endure 2 days of painful stomach cramp. But sickness washes away our sins hopefully.

Pray to God I can reach next year Ramadhan.

This year is also the year where my career is doing good and my boss have high hopes for me, feels weird people have expectation on you but I actually AM at that age where people starts looking up to you and expects u to lead the way and deliver. 

Funny how life is, you've been wondering what to do for years since you're graduating, hoping somebody can give you advice on what to do, what path to take in life, and when there's nobody to guide you, you just wing it and see what's work,  and one day u just cant wait for advice anymore cos you're freakin 37, But you still have so many unresolved questions!

So again, I'm torn between having to work well at my job and maintaining my climbing life. I know a huge chunk of the earth population will say why would you still want to climb(play) at this age? Focus on your work.

But climbing makes me happy, it is my identity, what I'm good at and the most important thing, it keeps me healthy going forward later in life. 

And Im not letting go of my work this time as it is the perfect job i have been looking for a long time. 

Now its just the matter of ME managing my time and attention. 

I can do this. 

I've been living my life without having any guidance/people to seek advice for the rest of my life, so what difference it makes now? I'll just press on as I always do. InsyaAllah.

2024!

Welcoming another year.

I mostly felt overwhelmed, good kind of overwhelmed. What's with work and climbing and Aran's wedding, thus having to find another house again. 

All are things I'm happy with/I love, but they still overwhelmed me. 

But mainly I'm trying to actively improve my health, cos I really want to do my best at my job and of course maintain my climbing life.

I still have all these racing thoughts in my head. Event though I'm no longer sad, (serotonin levels getting better) but I truly have no patience to write anymore, BUT still I wanna write at least something in this blog. not letting it die anytime soon. I mean no more word vomit. 

Being self aware and being in Tik Tok era, (information overload), few words that keeps popping up in my feed is 'adhd' and 'high cortisol level', been researching about it and keeps seeing , Magnesium deficiency, L-Theanine/Tyrosine, Probiotic, Ayurveda herbs etc.

So lets see if we can try to work on that this year, and see if could improve my focus cognitive function as well.  

HNY!

37!

 OK to be honest, this is the year that I'm finally admitting that I'm growing old. No more denying.

Firstly because this year 100% ppl will call me kak already, and the lowest age I can tell people without they second guessing is 29.

I mean my Enercon US boss did thought I was 26 (when I said 36) but then again he's American.

And Opah Anjang did ask if I'm still in school(uni) but she's almost 90 and in poor health. (God bless her.)

So both doesn't count.   

And then there's the grey hair. 

The amount of grey hair I see this year is alarming. Chaoi literally have to sit for 20mins to pluck those obvious ones protruding on the top of my head. Not accounting those at the side of my forhead.

And then there's climbing, While strength wise I thought getting better, fitness wise, I can silently admit I'm getting breathless when I do endurance.

I used to refused to admit that I cant climb better bcos I'm old cos obviously I climb better than most ppl in their 20s.

Also I cant say that cos I literally started climbing at 29. Actively training at 33. 

Unless I have been climbing since Im 16, I'm not gonna say I'm too old for this shit.

BUT, 

this year, I think I can say that, (though I still will not) because I have been climbing hard for 4-5 years now. There is some if not a lot of differences I can feel in my fitness level. 

But I'm still hopeful. and I wanna see how far I can go still.

If those Korean aunties can still climb 7c at 40-50yrs why cant I?

So HB to me!

MUSE Will of The People World Tour 2023!!!!

 

My first Obstacle Course Race - O-Zone Games 2023

 just put the title in here first story later.