Tuesday, November 27, 2007

a 'friend' story

I have a story to tell....

I want to be a model. Next thing i know I'm in America's Next Top Model or Malaysia's or what so ever. My goal is to win, get booked by big agencies and earn money for my family. Make them happy. But along the competition, i'm not doing so well and rather bad. My photo's suck and my walk are a mess. And there's Tyra told me i've to focus more, learn more, practice more and put more effort. "You said you really want this but somehow it doesn't translate in your photos. So you have to put extra effort and prove to the judges that you really deserve to be here." hehehe. Okay, me myself realize that i have to do the same thing. I keep on repeating in my mind. Focus, learn,practice and put extra effort. I'm not from a rich family so i have to do whatever it takes to be America's Next Top Model. But still every time in the judging panel, my performance aren't that impressive and i receive lots of criticism from the judges until one week, i was in the bottom two..very close to elimination. And i went back home without feeling guilty for not trying hard (because i think i've already tried my best), but feel grateful for not being eliminated. Still i was unhappy and complaining why other girls can do well but i cant.

Then suddenly, one girl came straight to my face and told me to stop whining cos i didn't put that much effort at all to impress the judges so i have no rights to complain why i was in the bottom two. She remind me my aim here is to earn money for my family. Supposed i cant afford anymore bad performance or else i might be eliminated.

Actually she's trying to make me realize my weakness that i already knew for long time. And do something with it..! Focus, practice and put more EFFORTS! Not just whining and complaining and pretend i've done everything to avoid being in the bottom two. And i DID realize it know. I already knew my weaknesses, i think i've put so much effort but actually i didn't. It's not even closer to enough. but when somebody step up and tell me straight to my face it goes directly to my heart and it hurts and i accept it and i know i have to do something about it. So i've learned my lesson.

In this story that girl was undeniably a good friend. Not only she concerned but she also dare to speak up. Some ppl just don't care, stay out of the way, minding their own business. If this girl ever exist in ANTM history...i tell u she will NEVER be the winner. Because she cares. But in real life... She's a true friend and i'm blessed to have her..

This story is just a piece of mind and might have been altered or exaggerated, also to remind myself. But to those who think they are related, sorry and thank you. Sometimes other ppl see our problems in different way and thats why we need a friend in this world so that they can tell us what we can't see thru our point of view. Especially our weaknesses.

Wish me luck to be the America's next top Model or Malaysia's or what so ever..=)=)=)

Friday, November 09, 2007

My first trip to Sabah

Basically, Desa IT Sabah was not as smooth as expected but the experience was.. i can say.. great! First of course its my first time in Sabah, my family was great, and their house kind of 'rumah air' type. Actually i'm a bit lazy to write. so i just upload the photo.


my whole foster family..
from left: mina, me, munzir, our dad- En ismail, YB Surinam, our mom-Pn.Elisah, Tn Hj. Zamzuri, Ian, Tamir and the one villager i dont know his name.

me, Mina, Ian and Tamir got the same parents.
they got 7 kids. 5 girls 2 boys. but 2 were in hostel.
the eldest is 16years and the youngest is 1year old.
our parents were very nice. but we sometimes couldn't get bapak's slang. we just rely on Ian to translate..bcos he's the only Sabahan among four of us..hehe



roof of south east asia
hope i can get up there one day


our first costume for the first show.

owh lupe nk ckp..i'm part of the dance group there. i love to dance soo much.. but dancing there made me missed some of the activities with my foster family.. bcos of the practising and stuffs. sedih jugaklaa..


with the village teenager who perform Brunei Zapin.(yellow costume)
Not much different actually.

Actually 6 of us ni kire macam penari terjun jugakla.. bcos we just practising the dance when we were in Sabah.. kire 3 days bfore the opening show. best x kitorg..? terabur habiss.. hehe..but we had fun though..=)


with my bapak
who loves to take pictures and dance..=)

our second costume


and the last one
i look uhm..ridiculously ridiculous!
One thing i dont like about dancing is the make-up...
lame satu hal..tebal satu hal..merepek satu hal lagi..see the green eyeshadow..!
tp actually dats commonla..especially malam..with all the lighting and stuffs..mmg la make up pun kene over..


have a boat ride with our bapak and siblings..


sunset at kg. weston, beaufort.
pecaye x? this pic was taken using my olympus which is 3.2MP je..hehehe


path to old chalet
kg. weston is actually one of tempat pelancongan jugakla.. so this is the path to an old chalet in this kampung. the whole chalet was surrounded by hutan nipah. quite scary la actually..hehe


me and my 16 year old sister on the main jeti..
notice the rumah air..i stayed in one of those..=)


the old chalet..really old huh..=P


YB's open house
the gals..


the guys..


our sister and lil bro.
mase ni our bapak take us ride at the sea..and we stop by picking buah Bidada.
rase die masam2..
xpnh makan..tp sdap jugakla..



chalet..i dunno its name..
this one is the new chalet..
much more better than the previous chalet la.. mase kami pegi ni there are some of foreign tourist tgh makan kat sini..


our bapak rockin' the boat..hehe
dlm laut tu ade buaye tau.. siyes xtipu..

IT Class at SK Bukau..
basically this is their current computer lab complete with only 10pc's.
they called it "Pusat Akses"

Supposedly only 5 school that we should be teaching, but this school request to be included in our program. So without proper material kitorg pergi je... buat some LDK than teach them IT and Maths on the following day. Supposedly ade English class jugak. tp as we say this school is a sudden plan so we just having 2 classes only.
The kids are good la bcos i'm expecting akan ade budak yg buat hal but this school all the kids are cool. diorg siap excited lagi dapat blaja MS Word...
kitorg a bit lucky la sbb most of our friend dapat sekolah yg student die agak aggressive..hehe

Oh, the answer when we get for asking their ambition were as follows..

Cikgu(biaselah kan..)
Polis
Bomba
Mekanik!
Pramugari!!

hehe..i dunno where they get that!



Standard 5 kids.


With the teachers.

Kalau nak compare sekolah2 di Sabah esp SK Bukau ni dgn sekolah2 dekat Putrajaya... fuhhh... langit dengan bumi.... hmm... not my job to describe la kan.. hehe.. xpela..


Visiting the place they made the keropok udang.


The last process before they pack the keropok.
kitorg pun dah macam udang kat tgh panas tu...

So far these are the only picture i have. Actually Desa IT Sabah ni not only happened at Kg. Weston je, on Friday kitorg gerak pergi Kundasang, spent a wonderful nite there and balik ke KK. Oh before that we also spent a lil time at Kinabalu Park.
I must say i HAVE to go to Kundasang again other time with my family...sangat besh..i'm not good at words so xleh nk describe camne best nye Kundasang tu..hehe..
oh one more thing, disebabkan jarang naik flight in my life, i've to say the food was horrible...adehh..n rase nak patah balik pergi SK Bukau tu n told those kids yg nk jd stewardess tu lupekan je lah cite2 nk jd pramugari..hehehe...

So tambah lagi satu wishlist..
nak sampai ke puncak gunung Kinabalu!!




 

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