September

 First week of September felt good.

After the overwhelming August, deciding whether or not to stay with the new job, trying to reach Grab new joiners incentives , deciding whether or not to focus on BotB, struggling to find partners to lead at Camp5 One U, September feels, calmer despite all the chaos.

At least my mind is. 

Although I got a new task above it all this month,  my brother got a job here, so I got to find a new house to rent for us and rent out my current 1 room apartment and train for the lead comp, all before 1st October.

One thing I'm grateful this month is I didnt have the same hormonal issues like I always did before. All the self pity, the sadness, the frustration, none this time.

I felt positive. I made up my mind about my job, made up my mind about BotB, and figure out a way to train for the lead comp. I did not put any high expectation on the comp, and I did not feel any pressure at all. My aim is just to enjoy everything.

Enjoy my job. Enjoy BotB, enjoy training for the lead comp.

And come 1st October, try to not cry before I climb the quali routes and try to have as much fun as I can on the comp.

Thats my goal.