Changing it up

I believe I need to try and change my perspective, my mindset, how I operate.

I always say I need someone I can tell my problems and my stories to, like a place to vent.

But,

1. not everyone CAN listen to your story, (they're busy/not free or they wouldn't understand)

2. not everyone  ABLE to listen to your story, (they have their own issue, they're cup is already full)

3. not everyone WANT to listen to your story. (they simply don't want to. Why would they?)

And venting in the blog, while convenient, feels like repeating whatever that's already in your head, but in slow motion. (cause typing your thoughts isn't as fast as thinking about it. heh) So its exhausting actually.

Draining the energy.

So, instead, I need to tell myself,

This is life.

Not everyone has support system.

Sometimes its just you, and your grind.

So I just have to make peace with the fact that I myself need to deal with all the thoughts.

And learn not all of them you need to deal with.

Most of it will just disappear and resolve itself.

And the one that doesn't, well I'll figure it out.

Cause I've been thinking to dump all the stuffs in my head here for the past 24hours but its just felt negative and draining.

No fun.

So I will write something else instead.