Alhamdulillah all is good, not super great not super bad, just good.
Though I do feel a little bit frustrated I got my period on the last 10 nights of Ramadhan (managed to at least pray full taraweeh on night of 21st but then have to endure 2 days of painful stomach cramp. But sickness washes away our sins hopefully.
Pray to God I can reach next year Ramadhan.
This year is also the year where my career is doing good and my boss have high hopes for me, feels weird people have expectation on you but I actually AM at that age where people starts looking up to you and expects u to lead the way and deliver.
Funny how life is, you've been wondering what to do for years since you're graduating, hoping somebody can give you advice on what to do, what path to take in life, and when there's nobody to guide you, you just wing it and see what's work, and one day u just cant wait for advice anymore cos you're freakin 37, But you still have so many unresolved questions!
So again, I'm torn between having to work well at my job and maintaining my climbing life. I know a huge chunk of the earth population will say why would you still want to climb(play) at this age? Focus on your work.
But climbing makes me happy, it is my identity, what I'm good at and the most important thing, it keeps me healthy going forward later in life.
And Im not letting go of my work this time as it is the perfect job i have been looking for a long time.
Now its just the matter of ME managing my time and attention.
I can do this.
I've been living my life without having any guidance/people to seek advice for the rest of my life, so what difference it makes now? I'll just press on as I always do. InsyaAllah.
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